Last night was a meditation failure. I set up the altar, ran the bath, got in, and could not settle. I banished several times, and struggled. My mind was running with the crap of the day. I tried several banishing techniques.
Finally, I got into trance, found myself on the beach, and then fell asleep… in the tub, with my already injured neck cranked to one side.
I woke up after an hour, and tried getting back into trance. I just couldn’t.
I’d had a very hard core NET session with my chiropractor only a few hours before, and I think that I had reached the limit of letting go, healing and self transformation for one day (called process point in NET language). My hormones are insane. I’m reeling from other trauma. So, it’s not like I didn’t do any work today, it’s not like I didn’t do ritual, I just wasn’t able to connect with Manannan.
There seems to be a vacillation between days of good rituals, and days where I just can’t get into it. I’m going to have to look at what that difference is. If it follows suit, hopefully tonight will be a good one.